A Day in My Life: Post 9 for Rave Reviews Book Club: The Demon, Continued

Written by Donna M. Atwood

In my previous post, I described a horrific experience in which I telepathically heard from someone or something that I thought was a demon. That’s right, I said it. A demon. As in an evil spirit who torments people and turns their lives into hell here on earth. I’m being completely real when I tell you that, whatever was going on, this was a truly terrifying experience to go through. Moreover, as someone who holds a degree in psychology, I was deeply concerned with the state of my mental health – this, even though I’ve always had a good head on my shoulders and have no history of suffering from severe mental illness.

Something else that I think is important to mention is that before my spherical UFO sighting (and the subsequent electronic malfunctions and paranormal activity which occurred all around me as a result of this encounter), I had gone to my doctor and obtained a prescription for Adderall. This medication was supposed to help alleviate the concentration problems I was having during that time. As it turned out, it helped for the first day. Then, it actually made things worse.

After clearing the mental illness hurdle with a psychiatrist who deemed that I was in fact, sane, I scheduled a subsequent visit, this time with my OB-GYN. I wanted to see if anything I was experiencing might be related to perimenopause. The GYN informed that that it’s not unusual for women in their forties to have some issues with concentration. He then placed me on low dose hormones.

Annoyingly, the voice in my head seemed to know everything that happened in my life. I say this because soon after my appointment, he asked if my hormone prescription was impacting my ability to hear him communicate with me. Much to my chagrin, the answer was no. With that answer, he let out a small chuckle. He then suggested that rather than taking Adderall for my so-called ADHD issue, perhaps I should take the time to actually deal with my problems. From his perspective, popping a pill wasn’t the answer I was looking for. In other words, the demon felt that it was time for me to stop burying my head in the sand and start resolving all the scary things in my life which needed fixing.

Because there appeared to be some benefit as to what was experiencing, this was the first time that questioned my "demon theory" about who was communicating with me. Still, I was upset that he wanted me to stop writing science fiction. If that weren’t enough, he insisted that I close all of my social media accounts which were connected to my pen name, Danica Cornell. This was inconceivable to me – as in, a literal nonstarter. That’s because I had a lot of followers back then, as well as people in a book club who counted on me for a variety of things.

I’m being straight with you when I say that I wasn’t the type of person to just up and disappear on folks, but none of that mattered to the demon. In fact, when it came to my writing, my social media accounts, and the book club I belonged to, nothing seemed to matter. He didn’t care that I had been a very good mom or that I had tried my best to be a decent wife. In my mind, both of these accomplishments were noteworthy since I had been raised in a family ravaged by alcoholism, domestic violence and worse.

It also did not seem to matter that I had formed the first of two of my family-owned nanotechnology start-ups. I did this with the goal of keeping people safer from severe weather events and chemical, biological, radiological and nuclear weapons than they would otherwise be without our technology.

It did not matter that I was kind-hearted, polite or that I went out of my way to chat with neighbors and lend an ear to friends who needed it. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not perfect. But I knew then as I do now that I’m a truly decent person. Any mistakes I’ve made, I’ve repented and asked for forgiveness. Since I’m such a sensitive person, I’ve done so repeatedly. Nevertheless, it eventually became crystal clear that whoever screamed at me for six nights straight wanted me to ditch my pen name, stop hiding inside of science fiction and book clubbing and get busy solving some family issues.

At this point, I was mostly convinced that the demon was determined to ruin my life. I was utterly petrified. Even worse, I was unable to tell anyone around me what was going on for fear of being thrown in a mental hospital. I was so scared that I even met with a father at a local Catholic Church to find out what was involved in obtaining an exorcism. I was utterly dismayed to find out that it took months to receive approval. I figured by then I’d be dead.

A couple of weeks later, I approached a pastor at a local church. The demon made fun of me during that time by calling me Danica Cornelius and yammering on about my pasteurization process. At this point, I wanted to pull my hair out.

What I didn’t fully grasp back then is that someone from an unseen realm needed to break my ego. Then and only then could I work on my personal and spiritual development. Eventually, this would allow me to transform from being a people-pleasing doormat into the person that I am today - a woman who stands tall and speaks her truth.  

Experts in spirituality, such as Dr. Deepak Chopra, believe that what may have seemed demonic in nature, may have actually represented early awareness of my own unlimited nature. To be honest, I’m still grappling with this concept, but I suspect that it may have to do with what is known as the higher self. I will now attempt to explain this as succinctly as possible.

Presently, my suspicion is that multiple timelines may exist in our universe at the same time. (Some people may refer to this as the multiverse.) As unlikely as this construct may sound, I think it’s possible that these timelines might consist of different versions of ourselves in different dimensions. When our higher self is able to break through to our present-day self, I believe this may represent one facet of what is known as unity consciousness. Another facet may be the eventual unification of earth’s human race as well as knowledge of, and direct interactions with, extraterrestrial species. We may also gain a better understanding of the spiritual realm. Perhaps someday in the future, everyone will be able to hear this realm through an increasing ability to match their vibrations, at will. I guess what I’m saying here is that the universe may be far vaster and more complex than many of us may have originally understood.

In my next post I will explore a possible link between ascension and self-actualization.

What about you? Have you ever gone through a spiritually difficult time which ultimately served to strengthened you? If so, I'd love to hear about it! (Please only share if you're comfortable doing so.)

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Wishing you love and light,
Donna M. Atwood

ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

Donna M. Atwood, founder of ALIEN EXPERIENCERS NETWORK is also an American writer of suspenseful paranormal and science fiction as well as spiritually based non-fiction. In her fictional works, she draws upon her B.A. in psychology to develop flawed and complex characters, while her background as a nanotechnology start-up owner serves as the foundation for her sci-fi's exciting, futuristic technologies. In addition, as a trained massage therapist and ET/UAP experiencer, when it comes to her non-fiction writings, Ms. Atwood is comfortable exploring some of the more esoteric aspects of the human condition. Ms. Atwood is known for reaching out to other experiencers as she maintains that there is nothing more important than supporting one another during this time of ascension.

Donna M. Atwood is a member of the National Society of Collegiate Scholars, the American Massage Therapy Association, the Exoconsciousness Group, the New York Writers Association and Rave Reviews Book Club. Additionally, she proudly supports Phoenix, Arizona's chapter of the Mutual UFO Network. Currently, Ms. Atwood resides in Tucson, Arizona where she enjoys spending time with her friends and family, including her grand dog, Luna. She is also frequently sighted around Sedona, Arizona where she partakes of its vibrant arts community, New Age shops, and world-class hiking. 

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